I have no idea what's going on with the new layout in Blogger so I'm just going to do whatever. So, I wanted to question the self today, and looking at my crappy posts, I feel quite embarrassed. Sorry about that.
Define 'me'. Define yourself. Define your personality. If you're like this in front of someone and like that in front of another, what exactly is your personality? Which one? Some people think it's a split personality and sometimes accuse you of 'faking' it or not being yourself but personally, I feel that the human character is a very versatile one. It really depends on the situation and how we react.
You can't expect someone to speak and behave the way they do to their friends, can you? How can you speak to a higher-up the same way you speak to friends? You can't! So where's this 'faking' and 'not being yourself' coming from? Isn't it just a question of who it is you're interacting with? I believe that this is a matter of acting correctly at the correct time.
Personally, I feel that it is very advantageous to be able to portray different aspects of your personality at different occasions, however, there are also negative sides. Firstly, since we, or rather, I behave differently in front of different people, when the two groups of which I act totally differently are put together, I have some difficulty choosing which act I should put up. Bear in mind my definition of act is just a face and not anything regarding fake. So, for example, in an interview, with teachers and students, this is when I lose my already low level of confidence because I am in an internal turmoil as I have no clue what to do. They say just be yourself, but what if 'yourself' means having a dynamic personality?
So after much deliberation and personal experiments, to me, being yourself could mean just going forth and do whatever comes to mind without going through the filter process. Just do it. Perhaps, that is the true self, doing without thinking. Perhaps, that is when you are truly being yourself instead of thinking about what people want to see and hence behave differently. Therefore, I believe that we should just as they say, 'whack'. Just whack, don't think, then be yourself.
All in all, I also feel that it could be the personality of people that is ever changing and it may not be a façade as they could merely be portraying different sides of their character. Haha. Additionally, even though people talk about being yourself and not changing yourself because of someone else, I feel that we still need to consider respect for our elders and upstairs. Yes, be yourself, but still, much consideration is needed before we can do or say something because once done, cannot undo and once said, cannot take back.
Yup, that's it for me today. I'm doing this because I can't sleep because I took a nap earlier on because I was too tired because....... Hope this post was not as shitty as the previous ones although my mind is not really here any more. Alright then, goodnight and all the best!
Love,
Adeline.
